Do you love me?
Of course, Lord! You are the Christ, my Savior!
Yes I am. But, do you love me?
Definitely! Everything I do, I do it for You.
Lord, haven't you noticed?
On the contrary!
I know about your desire to bring good news to the lost;
I see you singing for my glory;
taking care of children and the old ones.
I see your tithing.
You pray, you read the Bible.
I know about all those things very well,
and you won't miss your reward.
But today I want to know something else:
Do you love me?
.................
I've written this poem few years ago and yesterday,
during Rob Trenckmann's talk at JV fall converence, I got reminded of them.
I don't know about you, but I started with this:
Believing and accepting love changed everything;
my presence, my future,
my identity.
And yet, there are times when I get stuck.
In my head I know God loves me, but it doesn't get to my heart.
It is just a knowledge.
Instead of living out of love I live out of obligation.
As a good Christian I try to do good things, obey, be thankful...
/even non-believers know how the good Christian ought to behave, right?/
... but something is missing.
Something is wrong!
God did not reconcile me with Himself to become a spiritual robot.
He gave his life freely so my relationship with Him could be restored.
Relationship built upon trust and mutual love.
L.O.V.E.
Love doesn't demand but has requirements.
Once I believed Him, He wants only one thing from me:
my love in return.
It actually makes so much sense.
The more I know I'm being loved by someone,
it makes me want to love him back.
And love's manifestations just as
making right decisions, doing good deeds,
being able to give up selfish desires and
pay the cost of following Jesus
will naturally come out of the deep conviction of
being loved by my Creator.
.............
Well, I know how this works, but I still can be stuck.
So what do I do?
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find;
knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives;
the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocs,
the door will be opened." /Matt.7:7-8/
Ask, seek and knock.
There is this promise that if I go after the reason,
He will reveal it,
confront it, lead me to repentance if necessary
and most of all I believe,
He will assure me about His love again.
What about you?
Do you love Him?
Do you want to love Him?
